Royal Rogue` If I could just ...

2009-02-27T07:31:00.000-08:00

You said you're not crying,
but you're voice was trembling

So I just held you there,
without saying a word..

There's not even a hint
that we'll be able to promise a future for one another

So why me?

I'm sure..
I'm sure there's no answer to that

You said you're not scared,
but you're voice was trembling

You're defenseless..
so I'll protect you

And though we lack a future
we held onto eternity..

2009-02-25T05:08:00.000-08:00

I just looked in the mirror and I noticed something...

I look nerdy!

I don't know why but... yeah. I look nerdy.

My bag is big, my uniform looked huge and I hate short and stiffy hair!!

I don't know, i just look... dorky.

DORKY!

I feel like laughing but I can't laugh.. It's my face!
I feel like crying but I can't cry.. It means I'm pitying myself, which I'm not!

I'm never going to cut my hair again! Hmph!

2009-02-24T04:49:00.001-08:00

Aaron, thanks for buying me a lolly!
Haha (:

I've heard 'something' from 'someone'
that 'someone' likes 'someone' ...

Ohhh!!!! xD

2009-02-23T03:53:00.001-08:00

2009-02-16T03:33:00.000-08:00

Today is the most not boring day of the week!

In school, we have 3 periods of free english lessons! Wahoo! xD
Talked a lot in class..

I played with Ayuni during cca but timed-out first
because I didn't have stamina. -.-
Ayuni then played with Yew Chye and Jing En and one more guy.
Hehe.. I sat one corner talking with some friends.

I didn't know that watching people play is so relaxing (:

2009-02-15T03:52:00.000-08:00

58 things most girls dont know

--"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

--Guys get jealous easily.

--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

--Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

--Girls are guys' weaknesses.

--Guys are very open about themselves.

--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

--Guys will brag about anything.

--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

--No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

--Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

--Try to be as straightforward as possible.

--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

--When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

--Guys don't really have final decisions.

--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

--Guys like femininity not feebleness.

--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

--Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

--you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.

--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

--A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

--Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

--We don't like girls who are too skinny.

--Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like wheather it's a one time deal or not ....

--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

--Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..

--Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.

--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

2009-02-06T05:01:00.000-08:00

I think back to my days as a child,

looking up at the sky

There was one star in particular that shone more than the rest

I guess somewhere I gave up, saying "dreams are just that - dreams".
But looking at that star fiercely burning gives me renewed vigor!

I just relied on everybody
I say good-bye to those days

I can find comfort in the frigid wind
They give me the push I need to advance!

Being unafraid, somehow, it became a lie but
I won't ever stop fighting against it.
My ideals and truths continue to roll
to the extent of stomping and creating "my" existence.

I blow away my bewilderment and run out
quickly grasping my dreams.
I'm tired of seeing the past I threw away because I've decided
I'll change my way of living!
Even if I become useless, it's the key to my future

I just relied on everybody
because it wasn't me back then

I'll show you I can change the world!

If I look ahead my troubles will change into opportunities

My heartbeat was carved out from my future but

if I were to change my doubts into wings,

I'll become that star that no-one can reach!

Shining like a star

2009-02-05T05:21:00.000-08:00

I want to embrace all beautiful things,
the mountains, the sky, the flowers that blooms in the green fields..

I want to travel the world,
to Osaka, to Paris, to France and the whole continent!

I want to sleep all day,
to dream about my future..

I want to eat,
All the delicacies that people make to satisfy my cravings!

I want to make people happy
with my laughter and happiness!

I especially want to make you happy
with my smile..

I want to tell the whole world that,
I'm the biggest dreamer!
and I could make it all come true if I put my heart and soul into it..

I'm the biggest dreamer!
and you're my greatest friends a bimbo like me could ever have!

2009-01-21T04:47:00.000-08:00

Quite funny

To you, I don't know whether it's funny or not... but.. =.-

It's damnit funny! xD

2008-12-16T03:00:00.000-08:00

I am feeling 'down in the dumps' lately.
(Meaning, in low spirits)
Yesterday, I suddenly felt nostalgic.
Thinking about my primary school days
And the 'maybes' if I didn't transfer school.

Yankeeying all the way... Rubbish!

I dreamt of my prince charming! LOL! (:

2008-12-14T04:19:00.000-08:00

I really don't understand my father.
(Btw, it's a statement, not a question)
Sometimes he would ignore me when I talk to him;
Look away as if there's a wart on my face;
Just don't reply any questions I throw at him!

I am quite, no, VERY upset about this.
But sometimes, after all these ordeal, he would ask me to cook egg for him -.=
I really don't understand him, at all.

He could be cute at times, stubborn and very secretive.
I don't even know if he loves me or not. -insecure-
It's not often I saw his affection for me in his eyes and then *poof* gone!
Blank...

I could tell he loves my brother much more than me.
His baby son... -puke-

2008-12-13T09:44:00.000-08:00

SUII ROMA RAIKAMU BIPPINABA
SUII TESUTA RAIKA RINKINRINKIN
Pichi pichi ni hajikesou na BOTAN
Amai kumo ga oyogu asa

Hitotsu futatsu itsutsu muttsu tokeru hime ringo
Koko sa doko yo koko da ne soko
Tsuki ga warau yo

Kudaranai ima zenkai no kimi wa
Mizu-iro no toki de
KIRAKIRA no umi wo mawaru

SUII HAPPII RAIKA SUMAIRI KYANDII
SUII SUITAI RAIKA RUUSHII RUUSHII
Dokidoki to koware sou na RUBII
Amai hane ga chiru no sora

Hitotsu futatsu nanatsu yatsu chigireru PINKU
Mite yo miru no miru yo minai
HIMAWARI kieta

Utareta ashita zenkai no kimi wa
ORIIBU shizume
KIRAKIRA no michi odoru yo

SUII SUTAA RAIKA YUU EN MII
SUII HANII RAIKA
(WI RABU FOAEBAA)
WAKUWAKU no mi no naru ki HORA
Amai niji wo musubu yume

Sweet cloud like a ORENJI no
RARA noborenai asahi chigireteku
SHIMAUMA NO YORU

Sweet aroma like a BIG PEANUTS BAR
Sweet taste like a RINKIN RINKIN
Pichi pichi ni hajiketobu BOTAN
Amai kumo ga oyogu asa

Sweet happy like a SMILY CANDY
Sweet sweet time like a LUCY LUCY
Dokidoki to koware sou na RUBII
Amai hane de tobou yo

Sweet starlight like a YOU&ME
Sweet honey like a
"WE LOVE FOREVER"
Wakuwaku no mi no naru ki HORA
Hikaru kimi wo mita
Egao afureru tsuzuite ikuyo te wo tsunagou

2008-12-13T09:13:00.000-08:00

Dance like nobody's watching.

Love like you've never been hurt.

Work like you don't need the money.

Sing like nobody's listening.

Live like there's no tomorrow.

2008-12-13T08:50:00.000-08:00

My mother's aunty and her two sons went to KL on Wed..
My mother, brother, grandma and I tagged along.
It's a 3 day 2 night stay.

It's been a while since I've last seen her sons.
Actually, she had 3 sons and a daughter, but,
her other son and daughter could not make it.
To tell ya'll the truth, both of them were quite handsome. -blush-
For those whose reading this, don't get it to the top of your head! (:

Seeing the sunrise and sunset makes my heart beats faster..
When going home, he didn't even smile or say "sayonara" -i know that's exaggerating-
Quite sad actually because it would be years before I'd meet him again!
By then, we'd not be talking but looking away and ignoring each other.
For your information I'm not good at conversing! -embarrassed-
Btw, he had a very nice laugh. LOL (:

Just arrived back home yesterday, at around 10pm.
In time to watch Skipbeat!
I got to kiss my darling when I reached home -my computer-
(I can't seem to live without it) -laughs-

It can't be true! No, why now?

I think I'm falling in love again and too soon.
I'm not happy -pouts-
It's terribly exhausting, really. *sighs*
I think I'm going to sleep now, good night (:

2008-11-06T21:07:00.001-08:00

Wow.. I found out something in the morning at 10am .

I'm taking Goeg & Social Studies & FnN!

But I think I'm going to have a big, no, huge headache cause I suddenly noticed that I'm taking A maths . Dammit! It's not funny! I hate maths.. imagine taking E & A maths ..

Patience is what makes me a successful person. Hurt tells me that I'm a human with feelings.

I want to watch twilight. I'm told it's a forbidden love between a human and a vampire, is it? Jia Hui, I hope you and Chor Teng watch this movie with me. I'm terribly excited!

Love you guys! xD

2008-10-28T20:07:00.000-07:00

Habata itara modoranai to ittte
Mezashita no wa aoi aoi ano sora

"Kanashimi" wa mada oboerarezu
"Setsunasa" wa ima tsukami hajimeta
Anata e to daku kono kanjou mo
Ima "kotoba" ni kawatte iku

Michi naru sekai no yume* kara mezamete
kono hane wo hiroge tobitatsu

Habata itara modoranai to ittte
Mezashita no wa shiroi shiroi ano kumo
Tsukinuketara mitsukaru to shitte

Furikiru hodo aoi aoi ano sora
aoi aoi ano sora
aoi aoi ano sora

Aisou sukita you na oto de
Sabireta furui mado wa kowareta

Miakita kago wa hora sutete iku
Furikaeru koto wa mou nai
Takanaru kodou ni kokyuu wo azukete**
Kono mado wo kette tobitatsu

Kakedashitara te ni dekiru to ittte
Izanau no wa tooi tooi ano koe
Mabushi sugita anata no te mo nigitte
Motomeru hodo aoi aoi ano sora

Ochite iku to wakatte ita
Soredemo hikari wo oi tsudzukete iku yo

Habata itara modoranai to ittte
Sagashita no wa shiroi shiroi ano kumo
Tsukinuketara mitsukaru to shitte
Furikiru hodo aoi aoi ano sora

Aoi aoi ano sora
aoi aoi ano sora

2008-10-27T05:07:00.000-07:00

And there was silence, complete and perfect.
It was as though the fen had been cut adrift from time and life, caught like a bubble in sacred amber, neither touching nor being touched by anything of the world.

Duncan closed his eyes and wondered if this was what death felt like.

"Dark warrior..."

The soft whisper pulled the ground from beneath Duncan's feet. He spun around.

She was there, within reach, wrapped in her golden robes, watching him with eyes that were too dark in a face that was far too pale. She looked ethereal, more fragile than flame.

"Amber," Duncan said, reaching for her.

In the moment before he would have touched her, she flinched away.

"No more," she whispered. "Please. No more. I can't bear it."

"I won't hurt you."

"You won't mean to. But you will."

"Amber."

She stepped back as Duncan stepped forward.

"You must go from this place," Amber said urgently. "It is too dangerous for you. Erik and Cassandra never should have guided you here."

"They didn't."

"They must have. There is no other way."

Duncan opened his hand. Amber's pendent lay on his palm.

"You guided me," he said simply.

"That cannot be. We aren't joined in that deep and final way!"

"But we are. I am here. If you will not come away with me, I will stay with you in this amber silence."

Amber closed her eyes and fought against the grief and hope that were destroying her equally.

"I'm sorry, dark warrior. I meant you to be free."

"Without you there is no freedom except death."

She sensed his movement and would have retreated again, but the ancient stone was against her back. With the last of her strength, she gathered herself not to cry out at the touch that would come.

What Amber felt was a pendent being gently placed against her fingers. The instant she felt the weight, her eyes flew open. It was not only her own pendant that had been given to her.

It was Duncan's as well.

"Take them back!" she cried. "You will die here!"

"Breath of my breath," Duncan whispered. "Heart of my heart. Soul of my soul. Touch me."

Slowly Amber lifted her hand. When her fingers brushed against Duncan's palm, she cried out.

Pleasure not pain.

A pleasure more exquisite than any she had ever known before.

Crying, laughing, she threw her arms around her dark warrior and held him, simply held him, drowning in the radiant truth revealed by his touch.

Around them the air shimmered and changed, sound pouring in as though a bubble had burst, life returning in a rush, geese calling, wind stirring long gasses until the fen overflowed with whispers and sighs, the same words endlessly repeated, weaving a spell that knew boundaries of time or place...

I love you.

-Forbidden by Elizabeth Lowell

2008-10-23T03:52:00.000-07:00

I'm very sad that today is the last day of school .
I can't see Nisha next year cause she got to go into express with Gurwin .
I'll miss them so much! *cries*
Kind of scared to think of going to 3EN next yr .

Keep moving forward . Think of the future, remember the past .

I just got my hair cut . Looks kind of 50-50.. *-.=*
I don't think I'm coming out from my house for awhile .
Mummy baked cake just now .
It was delishh!!

Soft and creamy and a pinch of coffee!

2008-10-22T03:35:00.000-07:00

Well, school was duper boring .
Spend my time away by chatting with farhana..
Gurwin's book is, erm, how can i say, interesting?
Forget to bring money.. Found only $1.50 but I'm going to keep it .

Ayuni sms me in class but I did not reply bck cause my hp bills too high . Sorry

I'll remember the fun times we had . I'll always love you guys..

History seemed so hard . I'm taking Geography.. and F&N !
Submit my choice minutes ago .
Sleepy! Saving money to buy new comic books (:
Altogether I had collected 58 comics..

Passion for something makes me feel complete .

Tomorrow got back report book!
I feel like going to the hairdresser and cut my hair short .
So stuffy!

2008-09-25T01:36:00.000-07:00

During Home Econs we baked cookies!

Bake till GOLDEN BROWN

Cookies baked for 30 mins!

Nid to get cookies aft sch..

Stupid cookies..!!

- Nasib jdi, klao tk jdi... ako buang pat tong sampah -

geram kn ako jek

Aft sch went cosmics .

AYUNz wanted to

" check "

someone's fwenster (;

Cheekyx2!

but unfortunately for her...

she can't access the internet .

LOL!

Went to e lib (woodlands) :

`return-ed books

`make new lib card

`check AYUNz fwenster

`borrow-ed a book ( Title: All Abt Love )

`see handsome kids . LEL! ( Laugh Extremely Loud )

Dats it for 2dae..

My head is throbbing!

Wanna go sleeppp now..

Nytez . x.x

2008-09-22T06:53:00.000-07:00

3 yrs will pass by with a blink of an eye..
I would definately be awefully sad but
its worthwhile .

6 yrs during primary days flew so fast
that I thought I was dreaming..
All those fun memories we created .
I wonder if they remember me
when I reach 23 .

I wonder if I will ever forget
their names.. their faces..
maybe the times we shared?
If I would ever turn back time,
I guess I would repeat the word
" soon "

I won't regret
not saying goodbye..
'Cuz I know I'd meet you somewhere .
Somewhere among those huge crowd
Quietly living your own lifes .

But I will always know you're there
'Cuz I've known you all my life .
As if we had a bond .
Friendship .

Secondary Days..
3 yrs will pass with a blink of an eye..
So if graduation day draws near
Don't be shocked when I just smiled..
Not showing any tears or say any goodbyes
The world is a small place
Even if 7 or 12 yrs gone by..
You know I will never forget you...

2008-08-19T19:38:00.000-07:00

I'm soo sowiie cuz i didn't upload my blog for .. erm ..?

Two months ? Hahax .. Same reason . Lazy . No mood .

Ntg interesting happen . Soooooo on . BUT! Stay tune alrytes? XD

2008-05-07T00:30:00.000-07:00

-Poem-

Walking through an endless night ,

Hoping there's a shining light ..

And oh! Oh what a magnificent sight

A creature with wings take flight .

I shouted my pleas, my worries, my plight ;

The creature rose up with wings so bright .

It held me tight ,

Heart warm .. no longer in fright .

It smiled and stride ,

Away with pride

With me by its side ...

2008-05-07T00:20:00.000-07:00

-Poem-

Sometimes gazing from afar

Longing to love ;

To touch ..

Running through the school's corridor

I ran to you, arms wide open

My heart given ..

But sadly,

You turn away

Without anything to say ..

I stopped my tracks

My heart withered ;

Tampered and tortured

My tears trickled ..

If you don't notice,

I'm a fallen angel

Begets revenge, a heart full of sorrow

A broken wing, a stolen pride

Longing for love one day

Hoping, hoping

I now still pray ...

2008-05-05T02:46:00.001-07:00

You are a Brainy Girl!

Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.

You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.

For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.

A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

2008-05-05T02:31:00.001-07:00

You Are 54% Jealous

You're a fairly jealous person, but it's nothing to beat yourself up about.

A little jealousy is perfectly normal, though sometimes you take it a little far.

Recognize when jealousy is taking over your life, and try to hold back your impulses.

You'll be a better (and happier) person for it!

How Jealous Are You?

2008-05-05T02:26:00.001-07:00

Your Sensitivity Score: 73%

You are a highly sensitive person. Pretty much everything effects you.

You are tuned into the vibe around you, and someone's bad mood can bring you down.

But you also easily share in someone's joy - whether you know them or not.

Are You Extremely Sensitive?

2008-05-05T02:22:00.001-07:00

You Can Hang With the Guys and the Girls

You've struck a good balance between girlie and laid back.

You can keep it casual but when you dress up, you are as girly as the next girl.

How Feminine Are You?

2008-05-05T02:13:00.001-07:00

You Are An Independent Girlfriend!

Whoa, Ms. Independent! Your guy digs your modern style...

But he's sometimes left to wonder if you really like him.

Keep that unique spirit, but show him your love a bit more often.

No worries - you're light years away from smothering him!

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

2008-05-05T02:10:00.001-07:00

You Are 20% Girly

Um... you're a guy, right? If not, you're the most boyish girl in the world.

And for you, that's probably the ultimate compliment.

How Girly Are You?

2008-05-05T02:05:00.001-07:00

You Are Somewhat Like Your Mom

Believe it or not, you and your mom are pretty darn similar.

It may not seem like it at times, but you and your mom have a lot of common ground.

Over time, you'll probably get closer ... especially if you emphasize the things you like about each other.

Are You Like Your Mom?

2008-05-05T01:51:00.001-07:00

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world

So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time

You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...

But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.

Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.

Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.

Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

2008-05-03T18:59:00.000-07:00

"I have to go, Ichigo. I don't have any choice in it."

If she hadn't added that last part, perhaps it wouldn't have hurt so much. If she hadn't said that, he would have just waved her off, because that would have meant she wanted to go. God help him, he could send her anywhere, anywhere but a place she didn't want to go.

He could even leave her in Soul Society. He had. She'd wanted to stay there. "When?" He swore harshly at himself. Yes, very nice. His voice was scratchy. "When do you have to leave?" he said again, more indifferent this time. Much better.

"Soon. A couple days."

Ichigo nodded gruffly. "Rukia," he said.

Her face turned up toward his, its gentle demeanor creased with a question. "Hmm?"

"Follow me, okay? I have something to show you."

They both stood. They did so carefully, because the sloping roof of the little clinic was covered in a thin sheet of snow. Rukia tightened her scarf around her face as her breath and Ichigo's billowed into the air, joining briefly before dissipating into nothingness. He crawled into his window and waited for Rukia almost impatiently before his long-buried chivalry won out for the briefest moment and he helped her inside.

"Ichigo, what was—"

"Shh. Stay here. I'll go get it."

"Ah...but—"

He slipped from the room, leaving only the whistling breeze as Rukia's company. She played with the scarf that Ichigo had given her, allowing herself a small smile. It reminded her of her brother's. Sure, it wasn't white and it couldn't fund the construction of ten houses, but she liked it. It was very soft and the cloth it was made out of had been fluffed so the scarf felt like warm clouds against her skin. She'd never tell anyone, but she'd once played with her brother's scarf. It wasn't very soft.

Ichigo opened the door and caught her toying with the smooth cloth. She immediately dropped it, but her hands had no time to do anything. A small box-shaped thing was shoved into her hands. "For you," Ichigo murmured in a monotone.

Rukia looked down at the boxy thing. "Ah. Very nice. But what is it?"

Her scarf was more interesting than the ugly, malformed black box.

"It's...a camera."

"I see."

Silence.

"Ichigo...what's a camera?"

He let out a monstrous sigh and stole the camera thing from her, rolling his eyes as if he was being forced to stay in her company. "It's...just look."

He pointed the camera at her and pressed a button. It made a startling snap, click sound, and a piece of black and white paper was thrust through the little opening.

"Oooh..."

Ichigo stole the paper from it and laid it down. "It takes pictures," he said.

"So why are you showing it to me?"

"Not showing. I'm giving it to you, dumbass. So you can take it back with you. While you're here, take some pictures, okay? That way you can remember us all."

Rukia nodded and took the camera from him. Ichigo nodded and looked away.

Snap, click.

"Rukia!" Ichigo spluttered. "What did you—"

"I took a picture of you," she said. She sat down on the window sill. "It's scientific evidence that you can blush!" Grinning, she looked at the paper. "Wait, it's..." She started shaking it. "Darn—!" Finally she smiled, looking at the photo with a satisfied grin. "There we go. It's just...appearing! It's like magic!"

Ichigo swore heartily and tried to snatch the picture away from her. She quickly slipped it into her pocket. "Ah!" She said sharply, sticking a finger up in his face. "You said I could take pictures."

He nodded grudgingly as she wandered around the house, taking pictures of the inside of a microwave and of Yuzu's stuffed bunny rabbit. She got a closeup of a puppy just as it licked the camera, and she took a picture of her favorite branch in the tree across the street.

It was midnight before she packed the camera away and wandered in to bed. "I like this...camera," she said softly from behind the closet door.

Ichigo grunted in bed, moaning something incomprehensible. "Yeah, whatever," he murmured. She could hear something like satisfaction in his voice, though.

Several moments passed in complete silence.

"Memories. It's...that's what she said, when she gave it to me. Pictures are memories that are special because each time you look, you see something new. It's...darn. What did she say? Like a firefly in a jar. 'A captured moment.'"

"She?"

Ichigo didn't reply for a while. "Mom. That was the camera she gave to me. It's really old..."

It was Rukia's turn for silence. "I'm sorry."

Ichigo's voice held a faded smile. "Just go to sleep. I'll..."

But he couldn't finish the sentence, because he wouldn't see her in the morning.

When he awoke from a waterlogged nightmare at four in the morning, he knew she was gone without even looking. He felt it, like a hole in the fabric that made up his world. A weight at the end of the bed startled him, and he sat up. His camera lay there, and atop it, a small picture with a note attached.

Her writing was smooth and beautiful for one whose drawings sucked beyond belief.

He read the note. "Hope you don't mind. I took one last picture of you while you were sleeping. Oh yeah! And I left something for you."

He picked up the picture to find a tilted close-up of her face. She had a happy smile on, one of those childish grins that denied her age and her pain. Her small face smiled and those huge indigo eyes were stretched wide, the dark lashes embracing the curve of her ethereal irises. Her lips, so light-colored, had slid easily into a smile just slightly tainted with confusion. She'd taken the picture while holding the camera herself, thus the odd angle.

He saw a billion things inside of her eyes. Slowly, he turned the photo around. As an afterthought, a note had been scrawled.

"A memory for you, Ichigo."

By -Alaena Night-

2008-03-29T22:23:00.000-07:00

You can hear it

The sound of happiness

It's getting bigger and bigger and BIGGER

If you wish

If we think we can,

anything is possible

again and

again ..

I want to be the wind ..

A wind like a breathe ..

At times,

I want to be the wind that fights against you ..

.. the wind that dries your tears ..

.. or the wind that eases your tiredness.

I want to be a wind like that.

And I want to fly.

I want to sweep up the sadness,

And spread happiness.

When your sad,

Just cry. I'll be there.

When your happy,

Just call. I'll be there.

But because we're girls,

There are times that you get tired.

There are times that you hold back your tears.

So in times like that,

Dear,

I'm going to come flying down to you ..

So hold me in you arms gently.

2008-03-03T06:41:00.000-08:00

All love does is cause pain.....

You love that person so much,

then something happens to keep you apart....

You wanna see them but you cant,

You wanna hold them but you cant,

You wanna kiss them 'till the end of time,

but you cant,

for it seems that you cant be together.....

Do you know how much I cry for you everyday?

Wishing you were still here.

Hoping that you dont find someone else,

that you will love me until you return.

It hurts....

It hurts me to think of you not here,

To imagine you with someone else.

All Im asking is that you wait.....

Wait for me,

Wait until you return.

Because I will be here waiting for you

2008-02-25T05:35:00.000-08:00

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2008-02-10T04:15:00.000-08:00

Embracing the light and shadow

that are trembling within my heart

Chasing the dream that I can't throw away

The proud love is resurrected.

The colors of the sunset

are painful and beautiful and

in the sea of my closed heart are tears

that have overflowed.

The brilliance will never return again.

Tomorrow, I want

freedom like the blowing wind.

Embracing the light and shadow

that are trembling within my heart,

Chasing the dream I can't throw away,

Someday, I want to find

the eternally outspreading future.

Everyday that we fight,

we miss each other in passing. "Hello, Good-bye"

It would be nice if we could keep on walking

without hurting each other.

The wish cast into the sky

after the rain, draws a seven-color rainbow.

When the love trembling in my heart

becomes broken,

Without forgetting the wishful feelings,

Always, I want to deliver them.

Believing, in the future I can't see.

You taught me

this transitoriness, this strength.

I want to pass over

the sadness trembling within my heart,

So that I don't lose to a weak heart

I want to protect love.

Embracing the light and shadow

that are trembling within my heart

Chasing the dream I can't throw away.

The proud love is ressurected

in the glittering future.

2007-12-03T10:35:00.001-08:00

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2007-12-01T10:57:00.001-08:00

2007-11-25T05:27:00.001-08:00

2007-11-12T04:19:00.001-08:00

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2007-11-09T00:09:00.000-08:00

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ippai aru mon

Hop Step Jump!

Drew Draw Drawn!

Chip Syrup Whipped cream!

NARITAI ATASHI

KUURU de tsuyokute KAKKOii IKEteru to iiwareteitemo

honto wa sonna demo naishi FUTSUU ni onna no ko da mon

PURESSAA nanka hanenokete sunao ni naritain dakedo na

KYARA janai toka iwaretatte atashi no kokoro ANROKKU

naritai youni nareba ii jan shugo KYARA ga tsuiteruyo

yaritai youni yareba ii jan zenzen OKKEE dashi

naritai youni nareba ii jan hitotsu dake ja tsumannai

yaritai youni yareba ii jan nandatte dekiru yo

dare demo dokoka de negatteru chigau jibun ni naritai to

dakara senobi o shite mitari HEKOndari mo surunda yo ne

kokoro nonaka ni aru tamago minna motteru hazu dakara

maru mo batsu mo tsukesasenai NEGATIBU HAATO ni ROKKU O

Nikitai youni ikeba ii jan shinpai shinakute ii

tama ni wa sukoshi SABOrya ii jan ganbari suginaide

ikitai youni ikeba ii jan OTOME ni wa wakannai

shinjiru michi o ikeba ii jan machigatta tte ii

naritai youni nareba ii jan shugo KYARA ga tsuiteruyo

yaritai youni yareba ii jan zenzen OKKEE dashi

naritai youni nareba ii jan hitotsu dake ja tsumannai

yaritai youni yareba ii jan nandatte dekiru yo

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ippai aru mon

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2007-11-01T19:31:00.000-07:00

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2007-10-26T03:52:00.000-07:00

I was too close to see ..

the things that were important to me ,

so I passed by it ..

Even though it's far away ,

what i chase after still shines ..

Even a simple smile can echo out ,

making my heart race -

and that pulsing heartbeat always changes the world ..

Important feelings can't be put to words ,

so don't ever let go of my hand ..

If there is never-ending love ,

let's make it happen -

by our small hands , we can fly if we're together ..

What always give me courage were your gentle eyes ,

i want you to gaze at me with that smile on your face -

because i'll always be by your side ...

2007-09-14T06:27:00.000-07:00

Do you like to be praised by
answering everyone's expectations?
Will your smile always be beautiful
even if you hide your true self?

Just dreaming the beginning ..

then waking up .
The continuation can be reached someday ..

by myself .

The most important thing is always ..
without any shape ,
even if you have it or lose it
you'll never know ..

Getting the new wind on your side .
It's now okay to search for the blue bird .

Turning sadness into kindness ..
Your uniqueness into strength ..
It's okay to get lost so begin walking .

Unfair adults are always
giving lectures everytime we meet ,
being unable to show their true selves
they get grouchy as they get hurt ..

It's natural like the rainbow ,
that somehow appears after tears ..
the rain stopped .

Turning sadness into kindness ..
your uniqueness into strength ..
It's okay to get lost so begin walking ,
once again ..

once again ..

2007-08-08T07:08:00.000-07:00

Im all ryte todae .
ntg kinda happended .
((:* im still strong as
eva ! :) dun worry .
tomorrows gonna be a
new dae . sleep tight !

2007-08-07T22:35:00.000-07:00

Everyone's in the way .
I waved my hand
But your back is ..
Already swerving through the crowd of ppl
And sinking into the evening sun .
I close my eyes and began to remember
The words you told me .
Only happy memories
Are suppose to be there
But I became anxious .
Where does my heart waver so ?
I want to tell you about my overflowing feelings ..
" I love you , I love you , I love you more than anything . "

I want to turn around
Run after you
Catch up with you but ...
The sadness of the twilit sky swallowed my courage .
Im in your smile .
Even a short time after we've parted .
I want to cry out like a ..
Lost child .
If only I could be honest with myself .
I wouldn't have to go through this .
Only ...

2007-08-07T07:46:00.000-07:00

I lurpe toooday !!
I took pictures for
PW and bla bla bla
=.-
Yar .. dats it .. I tink
deres nothing to be
excited about .
"Goodbye my Privacy!"
zzZZzZzZ ..
Bought two .. I sae 2
comics man ! w00t !
Lolx . ((:* I lyk ..
I tired liaos .. buaiis!

2007-08-06T02:25:00.000-07:00

After saying goodbye to that sky

I begin my journey

For me

The changing colours of the city really makes me sad

In the corner of the park

Your head was hanging down low

I was starting to feel something from the sign of my heart

The most important thing to do is stay true to your heart

When the sky embraces the stars

and they begin to fall asleep ..

The love that burst out of our hands starts to walk

Beyong the sky

You can see tomorrow

Let's cherish the future that awaits each one of us ..

2007-07-26T06:37:00.000-07:00

Ahh .. todae alot happened but ..
all is like normal .. yeah ..
(: no worries .. im still strong .
Gd nyte .

2007-07-25T02:52:00.000-07:00

"It was warm and the sky was
a piercing shade of blue much
like today, the colour blue has
the power to heal people's hearts.
It's so kind, so pure .."

WOAH !! nice quote man .. i lyk !
It rocks man !! ((:*
I won't tell u from where i get the
quote .. its a secret .. :x
it inspired me :) very much ...
hope u'll get something that
inspire you too . ((: until then !

2007-07-25T01:38:00.001-07:00

ii went mc witt jia hui and
chor tengg . iits great and
all . really ((:* butt thenn
gott 'these' ppl throwingg
stupid paper aeroplane ..
watt the ! theyy were lykk
1 orr 2 yrs older thenn us
butt thinkk so childiishly .
myGosh .. =.- ii hab no
mood now b cuz of diss
ppl !!!!!!!!

2007-07-23T07:48:00.000-07:00

Ahh ! ii didnt ggo Sentosa
witt Yu Xuan n Jeannie
ii gott probb at home .
nvmm . ii dunn care already .
ii justt updated the new
songg byy avril lagvine
ii hope ppl lliked iit .
ii picked especially ferr
miie fwenns ! =D
ii happy noe .. ii maybe
changge sk00l tuhh
w00dlands ring .. ya ii noe ..
iits not as famous as
the currentt sk00l iim inn ..
iits okayy .. iif my parentts
happii denn iits no probb wiit
miie .. ii wanna sleep liaos ..
buaiis !!

2007-07-19T05:05:00.000-07:00

RIBON wo musunde
I tied a ribbon in my hair..
waratte mitara
and then I tried to smile..
kawatta watashi ni
I got the feeling that..
nareta kiga shita
I had change who I was..
chiisana yuuki ga
A little bit of courage..
jishin ni naru
becomes confidence..
anata ni aumade
I had forgotten that fact..
wasureteta
until I met you..
onnanoko wa minna muteki ni nareru
Any girl can become fearless..
tokubetsu na mahou shitteru no
by knowing a special kind of magic..
It's show time!
It's show time! ..
Doki * Doki sasete ne
make my heart beat faster and faster..
itsudemo TOKIMEKI tai no
I always want this exciting feeling..
iron na watashi misete ageru dakara
I will show you a different me. So please!
Motto * Motto sunao ni
I become more and more a part..
afureru kono kimochi wo
as I overflow with this feeling..
anata ni todoketai yo
I'd like to send it all to you..
uke totto nenne * my sweet heart
Please accept it, my sweet heart..

2007-07-13T02:43:00.000-07:00

Well , lately ..
i've nothin tuhh sae .
Im just bored .. haizz
I dun feel lyk going
tuhh sk00l anymore ..
it's lyk ... everydae ..
i expect something gd tuhh
happen .. but in the end ..
well , something gd happen
too but mostly .. its ..
class is SO NOISY !!!!!!!!
I cant stand it man !!!!!!!
=.- i'll relax .... dun disturb me ..
im in a bad mood ryte now ..
ohh .. n sowie for not posting
.. cuz i dun have the mood to do so.
its easy as dat .

2007-07-05T08:40:00.000-07:00

Another day, when someone and someone falls in love
Somewhere in this world
Two intertwined lines becomes untied
And stays untied
It's awkward love but
You can't convey it with words
Look, a gentle breeze passes by, the paper is trembling
Time is trembling, we are trembling
And then someone and someone falls in love
Believing forever
Another day, someone and someone stares into the future
With a weak smile
Awkward love is wonderful
Because you can't convey it with words
Look, Feel something, Forget something
Find something, Lose something
And then, someone and someone falls in love
Believing forever

2007-07-05T05:29:00.000-07:00

After science , I ask Miss Rozianna
to gib me permission for not coming
to np .. cuz miie aunty wanna marry
and im gonna be there wit my family.
Help Help mah .. ((:*
I'm gonna gib sweets to lil boys n girls
.. aww ! =.=
I can't believe i sit bhind huang zheng ..
haizz .. my fate . ;-;
Dragonboating is damn tiring .. after
all those crap, my face, my hair ...
all got sand !!!! wtf !!!!!
Now, im writing all these crap down so
dat i dun forget this 'memorable' dae .

2007-07-01T22:04:00.001-07:00

2007-06-30T20:34:00.000-07:00

I'm holding a drop of time in my hands ..
I quietly grip the forgotten memories ..

The lost words .

When I recalled each event one by one ..

I thought I understood everything ..
But the faded words were right by my side ..

Nights when I can't find an answer ..

And a single drop of warmth ..

And my longing for something far away ..
I'm spending my whole life just repeating those things over and over ..

I'm holding drops of time in my hands ..
I quietly grip the forgotten memories

The lost words ..

I want to grab all the things you love in my hand ..

Never letting them cool down ..
While we ..

As people ..

Are unable to share that feeling ..

The meaning your words release ..

An unquestionable love ..

A feeling that has no answers ..
If only we could convery all that just by looking at each other ..

I'm holding drops of time in my hands ..
I quietly grip the forgotten memories ..

The lost words ..

I'll keep this love in my heart ..

I've lost you...

2007-06-30T02:16:00.000-07:00

todae .. has got to be the worse dae of miie life! its gotten frm bad to WORSE .. first, it started out at my tuition centre .. it was turning out ohkay .. budden .. when MATHS time .. ALOT of question i nvr do .. it was lyk .. damn HARD lorh !!! n dat teacher .. he keeps tellin me .. dat if i didn't noe any ques. , tell him .. haizz .. i was quite embarressed !! budden , for my own sake .. wat tuh do ... I meet miie mummy , miie daddy n miie lil bro at Toa Payoh Fork n Spoon n eat lots lots!!! i eat .. iced longan ... laksa ... iced milo ... n some french fries .. i dunno if u tink its lil' but to miie its ENOUGH .. on our way home ... we went to POSB at 'TIT TIT' place ... i saw dis guy .. holdin a WHOLE STACK of $50 doller notes !!! he was lyk .. so rich .. i was trying to get a GLIMPSE of the amount of money dat guy has but ... he's BIG body blocked my view !!!! i was lyk .. wtf to tell u the truth ... i am kinda a busy body SOME TIMES ... at home ... miie mummy n daddy went out again gonna buy some stuff... miie lil bro watch TRANSFORMERS .. i play computer games n uploading my blogskins .. den .. he asked for milk . i den make milk for him ... den the hot water scalded my fingers n i ACCIDENTLY spill some on my clothes .. got STAIN man !!!!! bad day ... bady dae .. big CHOCOLATE spots on my clothes .. now .

2007-06-29T06:36:00.000-07:00

Ohaiyo Gozaimasu ! nyahah .. just a greetin . dunno ? dun ask . lol . Wah !! Today had been a HARSH dae man . HARSH dae ! Npcc .. during Drilling time , we learnt lyk a fencing patten dunno wat dats called . I had so much fun !! Dat time , when lining up in two's , i stand next to Simin . Then she say dat my uniform , the button , i put at the WRONG side ! WTH ! Miie SHOCK sia .. i looked at other 'gurls' uniform , n u noe wat ? She's ryte . Dammit man ! Budden . nobody noticed , so , i dun tink too much 'bout it . ' ONE CHECK ONE CHECK ONE ' w00t ! miie lurpe .. After dat , the PT time , we got scolded for DUNNO WAT REASON . Well , i dun tink its my fault n i haven't noticed anything wrong . But the only person i noticed is LILI . lol! She forgot to bring her hairnet and sir got her to loan from our seniors . Nyahah ! Actually its not dat funny . After she changed , she forgot to change her shoes and walk straight out . Sir saw her and pump her down . After doing all those STUFF , her face was all red from exhaustion . Haizz , i pity her though . Enough 'bout dat , after about 6.00pm , we found ourselves into pumping position .. ahh ! i feel so dammit stressed out toking 'bout it ................ im gonna watch some ANIME SHOWS to CALM MY NERVES .. sayonara! (: